#2020 at 10:42PM

[thenotsolittlemisspeculiar]

⚠️ C/W: Menstrual Blood, Filthy Floor Tiles

Period Heart ❤

May 19, 2023 at 10:42pm PHT: Sorry for the dirty floor tiles. I already cleaned it, but it has been stained by hard water and the rust from our corroded pipes due to salt water. (We live near the sea.)

[remembertheplunge]

Entry from my journal. 11/10/2020

11/10/2020 Tuesday 8:42pm

So, Dreams of heaven last night.

I saw it.

Felt it—unearthly good feel to it.

Plus—I think I encountered my soul (in the dream) in the old “Coffee Loft” which is now Preservation Coffee.

And( while I was awake) I heard 3 knocks on my bedroom door.

Death knocking?

End of entry

Note:

Some say that if you hear 3 unexpected knocks on a wall or door, it portends a death.

I have been writing in the same coffee house space in Modesto, California since the late 1980s.

It has gone through different owners and names, but, it has always been a coffee house.

When I first began going it was called “The Coffee Loft”. Now it is called “Preservation Coffee”.

[food-log-life]

ホットケーキ🥞#昼食

[authenticallyemmie]

Wore green today. Didn't get pinched. Wash your hands. Stay at home. Social distancing doesn’t mean hanging with your friends at home. Don’t be selfish. That's it. That's the caption. 🤷🏻‍♀️ 🍀 . #createyourlane #louisvilleblogger #seethe67 #psootd #plusisequal #celebratemysize #plusmodelmag #visiblyplussize #midlifeblogger #southernblogger #effyourbeautystandards #ltkcurves #tcfstyle #bcxlb https://emmie.me/2w8pFkm

[dopingconsomme]

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[skrubu]

Enjoying Kari Holopainen’s #photobook Polku, Path (2020) #photography #kariholopainen #mustataide #finland https://instagr.am/p/CIgqWjgBNgo/

[xolovejessie4181]

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[thenotsolittlemisspeculiar]

Random Things

[angiesnotnormal]

via [Angie Brown]

[periodic-euphoria]

Illusion

Long, silky soft hair

Blacks and browns dance brightly under the golden sunlight

As you turn your head to face me

Remember when you’d let me run my fingers through your hair

As your head lay in my lap?

Deep, enchanting brown eyes

Flecks of honey call like sirens from behind your almond-shaped spells

Remember when we’d stare into each others eyes for hours

Wishing we never had to look away?

You’ll never know the electricity

That surges though my body each time we share a glance

Your small, smooth slender hand

Fits so perfectly in mine

Every time we touch I feel -

I jerk out of my thoughts. I can’t believe I let myself wander away again. Every time I think I’ve moved on I fall back into your poisonous illusion.

I’ve forgotten how wrong this is

For a moment,

I forgot how everything I thought we once had was a lie

You and your manipulative, enchanting lies

I wish you hadn’t let me fall so deep

Why didn’t you tell me it was all an illusion

Before it was too late

You liked the attention, didn’t you

And I liked pretending I finally had someone to love

Let me run my hands through your hair one last time

Let me stare into your beautiful eyes one last time

Hold my hand one last time

Lie to me

Tell me you love me one last time

I live for that illusion darling

Please just let me pretend it’s real one last time

[sangklp]

can everyone leave my mescaline cactus alone https://www.youtube.com/c/lifesang

[moonlit-jeno]

nct masterlist

p.s: i follow back from @moonlit-minho

fic recs? @cocoa-minho

personal? @starlit-jaemin

like 99% of this is mature

series

after hours- ‘00 line s f a

love sick- ‘00 line s f a

one shots

taeil

choking s

johnny

public sex s

face sitting s

mutual masturbation s

4:53pm s

double penetration s

valentine s

fifth time’s the charm? s

taeyong

4:53pm s

yuta

handcuffs s

kun

oral s

doyoung

blowjob s

valentine s

1:56 am s

ten

jaehyun

blowjob s

hate sex s

double penetration s

11:06am s f

valentine s

red door yellow door s

sicheng

choking s

jungwoo

9:24pm s

valentine s

evanescence s a

yukhei

10:07pm s

exhibitionism s

thigh riding s

movie night s

foolish s a

somnophilia s

1:44am f

mark

first time s

mutual masturbation s

exhibitionism + jaemin s

10:26pm s

rainy day s

pegging s

daddy s

birthday s

red door yellow door s

xiaojun

movie night s

hendery

movie night s

renjun

blowjob s

rainy day s

jeno

fingering s

blowjob s

2:27 pm s f 

breeding s

snapshot s

8:35pm s

voyeurism s

rainy day s

hate sex s

11:40pm s

birthday sex s

friends s

donghyuck

oral s

overstimulation s

voyeurism | part 2 s

rainy day s

dream come true s

jaemin

exhibitionism + mark s

9:22am f

edging s

8:35pm s

voyeurism | part 2 s

oral s

rainy day s

high sex s

10:21pm f

secrets s

2:42pm s

pegging s

slide s

yangyang

movie night s

stargazing s

chenle

jisung

nana day! f

analysis:

types of lingerie they’d want to see their s/o in: 127 | wayv | dream

ideal types

wips

games

hoeliday drabble tag

summer drabbles masterlist

2020

2021

[dopingconsomme]

#DopingConsomme 共有

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[xolovejessie4181]

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[4dtk]

@skrtbeepbeep: “can i request haechan angst with promp #9 and #10?? thank u 🥺” yes! sorry this took so long hun </3 enjoy!!

angst, 9: "please don’t lie to me again, i can’t take it.”

angst, 10: “do you even still love me?”

warnings: implied cheating

[9:42pm] under the heavy rain at the bus stop, you clutch onto your coat while bus after bus passes the area. you feel anxious under watchful eyes while commuters come and go, checking the time as the seconds drift by.

seconds become minutes and minutes becomes an hour. at least you had some shelter as you wait for haechan, enjoying the background noise of the rain in the deserted night.

a text distracts you, prompting you to perk up assuming that it was your boyfriend’s message to you. instead of haechan, there’s a daunting link sent to you by your friend.

without even reading the article’s name, your eyes naturally shift to the link provided, the words forever boring into your skull.

suyeon 🤢💜: “https://www.allkpop.com/article/2020/09/ncts-haechan-involved-with-someone-other-than-familiar-faced-y/n”

suyeon 🤢💜 is typing…

suyeon 🤢💜: bruh what is this????? did u know about this hun… it’s like all over twitter and stuff

suyeon 🤢💜: (y/n)?

the phone suffered the tight clutch you had on it, shaking with disappointment and anger as you further read off the article. you digested the pictures like no other, eyes never leaving the girl haechan was hand in hand with.

it felt like the atmosphere changed; the rain became irritable, the quiet chatter of passers-by annoyed you and the upbeat song turned harsh with dissonance and felt jarring to your ears.

steps approached you, with the familiar pitter-patter of rain upon an umbrella as haechan’s familiar voice calls out to you.

“hey baby, sorry i was late,” he didn’t try to hide his smile, pocketing his phone in a hurry. there at the bus stop, you couldn’t find the light in his eyes the same way he looked at you years ago.

“where have you been?” you ask quietly, reluctant to move to his side as he shifts uncomfortably.

“o…oh, just went overboard with recording in the studio, sorry about that.”

maybe it was true, with how cheap his lies were becoming as well as with the way he acted.

“please don’t lie to me again,” you choke out, trembling fingers slipping over the chats as you forward the link, “i can’t take it.”

tears linger at the corner of your eyes as haechan’s widens at the article, scrambling to scan the write-up.

and you say the one thing that makes haechan’s body burn with heat and hesitancy, despite the freezing weather.

“do you even still love me?” it was a sentence you never wished you needed to say, but, all good things must come to an end.

you just wished this would be an exception.

“i- no, i don’t think… so, anymore.“

the answer was a bullet, shattering your heart even more as he stands dumbfounded and caught in the act.

the atmosphere changes again; the downpour became background music, the conversation of pedestrians faded away and the cacophony of sounds blasting from your headphones were enough to keep you distracted.

“at least your last answer wasn’t a lie,” you whisper, brushing past haechan into the heavy rain. it soaks into your clothes with a coldness that was almost deadly.

all you could focus on, however, were the hot, salty tears trickling down your face as the night descends deeper in oblivion and the hour that haechan kept you waiting for fades away into nothingness.